the contentment

Its been a while since i last posted anything here.. of course, ive been kept busy up to my sleeves i almost thought i signed up myself for some slavery or something. there's so much things happened since the last post. with the puasa, my be-early birthday treat from my beloved hubby to be, my birthday on raya eve, then raya itself. i'll keep it short as i can to sum it all up..

Puasa - not so much work. but i got myself busy with some business. With the tudung and brooches and also kuih raya. (also another 'business' which i cant confess or i'll end up in jail.. hehe! if i tell u, i'l have to kill u!) so, i got some extra money which helped me to cover the petrol and toll for my balik kampung trip to Kedah. I got no visitors; purposely declined all; since my boss thought we should respect the holy month. Cool.

This year my lovely Mr Boddah, the love of my life, got me 2 birthday presents! U see, i always made him agree not to shower me with lavish gifts and such cz i dont really want to be a spoil gf who empties his bank accounts. But of course, being the sweet bf and soulmate, he always tries to swing it his ways and this year, he successfully got me some presents because im in dire need of it yet, i haven't got it myself. How could i be mad at him for breaking the 'rule' anyway? especially because im in love with him.. so so so much! so, im thankful that he knows when to break the rule. hehe!

my birthday was on raya eve. of course there wasnt any birthday cake; even when my twin and i openly reminded everyone that we wanted secret recipe cake. Because it was our birthday, we got the easiest job - to kupas bawang (usually we have to potong daging to make the cicah ketupat). but of course, it was way 'out of our league' and its so unfair especially that there's more than segantang of pulut left to be made into ketupat. So, yours truly had to join the ketupat making activities because not so many of us got to do it right and left the kupas bawang job to those who dont know how to anyam the ketupat. but we learnt about an instant ketupat and almost instantly the whole team agreed that by next raya, we should just use the instant ketupat (as if they really are going to do that!)

raya was a bittersweet memory. It was the last raya as 'Miss B' because if all turns out well and ALLAH permits, next year im going to be Mrs A =) (yippie!!) and im not sure about my raya celebration next year, so i cried at whatever things i did, thinking it might be the last raya i did this and that, like hugging my mom longer than usual and even went to terawih+smyg raya with her just so i can smyg beside her because im not sure where im going to terawih+smyg raya nx year. yeah.. im a weirdo!

anyway, ystrday was a great day for me. a small gath of our families for some small occasion featuring yours truly of course! it was a nerve-wrecking day for me.. but all ended up very well and im so so happy that one path has been taken and im a step closer to my dream. got to see my soulmate just from afar without even having a single conversation is so not me. but patience is virtue! im in love and im hoping the best for our relationship. here's my very own 'my preciousssss' courtesy of Mr Boddah, my soulmate =)

the meaning behind my name... (yeah, sure!)

What Noor Azlinn Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

The interrogation

1.Most attractive features of a guy is?
smile n everlasting smile, a smile can bring u near to me - 'smile' by boyzone

2.Would you date anyone out of your race?
Im happy with my Mr Boddah now

3.Do you like older,younger or the same age guys?
dont mind the age, just don't like the type of man who never grow up a.k.a. childish! and again, happy with Mr Boddah.

4.Would you date a guy that smokes?
Non-smoker!! thank God i've found him!

5.Does he have to be rich?
Nope.. rich can sometimes be a no-no

6.Do you prefer taller,shorter or the same height guys?
taller please.. My Mr Boddah..

7.Do u like guy with facial hair or no?
as long as its neat

8. Name four important things u look for in a guy?
maturity, patience, loves me and don't care about my looks

9.Would u date a guy your friends like or used to like?
been there done that! Gosh! I feel bad..

10.Would you want a guy that is or is not a virgin?
well, i couldnt really know, could i? what kind of question is this?

11.Short or long hair guy?
Erm.. as long as it's neat

12.HONESTLY,when it comes down to dating a person, do looks really matter?
honestly? i dont really care

13.Do you like guy that built or more skinny?
somewhere in btwn

14.Do you think that guy should open and close car doors?
yeah, his side of the door. i can perfectly handle my side of the door, no worry. i mean, nobody's too gentleman. So i don't mind..

15.Describe the guy that you love?
his name is azmir. hehehe

the long and endless questions

the 100 questions!

1)What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
Answer: Fae who woke me up from my sleep - she's a good friend of mine
2)Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
Answer: Seldom. My hp caught a stupid virus. If turned off, mms will be sent to the contacts in my hp once its turned on. I must make sure i've got no credits before i can turn it off.
3)What happened at 10.00am today?
Answer: nothing.. was reading the newspaper
4)When do you last cry?
Answer: last week
5)What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
Answer: Its tastier raw. Yummy! but of course, with bread
6)What do you want in your life right now?
Answer: My Mr Boddah...
7)Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put out your hood?
Answer: Can tudung be considered as hood? =) im too lazy to carry an umbrella
8)What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Answer: the blue-paco rabanna-scented BUM sweater.. =) and a big teddy my soulmate gave me for my birthday
9)Which bottoms are you wearing now?
Answer: a black tights
10)What's the nicest text in your inbox says?
Answer: too many!
11)Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
Answer: Never!
12)Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Answer: Nope
13)What's the last movie you watch?
Answer: Cant remember! Its been a while since i last went out for a movie
14)What are you proud of?
Answer:Myself! =)
15)What does the oldest text message in your inbox says?
Answer: its a secret
16)What's the last song you sang out loud?
Answer: a scotts imulsions tv add song.. hehe
17)Do you have any nicknames?
Answer: yes.
18)What does your last received message says?
Answer: Not gonna revealed it
19)What time do you go to bed last night?
Answer: i cant remember, i dozed of right after i put my head on my pillow
20)Are you currently happy?
Answer: yes! very!
21)Who gave you the best advise?
Answer: My mom and lecturer, Pn Marja Azlima Omar
22)Who do u wish to be the closest friends??
Answer: Ive already have them
23)Who do you talk on the phone last night?
Answer: Nobody
24)Is anything bugging you right now?
Answer: Yes, im craving for a secret recipe cake!
25)What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Answer: Adrianna Batrisyia
26)Do you wear toe socks?
Answer: nope
27)Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Answer: cant remember
28)Have you ever had you heart broken?
Answer: Yes. broken beyond repair, but its mended so beautifully.. =)
29)What annoys you in most in a person?
Answer: busybody
30)Do you have crush on somebody
Answer: my one and only, Mr Boddah
31)Have you ever tried cocaine?
Answer: Yucks!
32)What's the colour of your room?
Answer: cream
33)Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Answer: nope
34)Do you believe in saying 'talk in cheap'?
Answer: No
35)Who was the last person who lay on your bed?
Answer: Myself
36)Who was the last person to hug you?
Answer: Adrianna Batrisyia
37)What do you want to say to the person?
Answer: Which person?
38)Do you have a life?
Answer: Of course!
39)Have you ever think someone dead, when they really didn't?
Answer: Yupsy!
40)What is the reason behind your profile song?
Answer: no reason
41)Who is the last person you saw in your dream?
Answer: i dont know
42)Last time you smiled?
Answer: just now
43)Have you changed this year?
Answer: Yes, i think so yes
44)What are you listening to right now?
Answer: nothing
45)Are you talking to someone when doing this?
Answer: nope
46)Do you walked with your eyes open or closed?
Answer: opened. Duhh!!
47)Is there a quote you live by?
Answer: yes, but a number of them
48)Do you want someone you can't have?
Answer: My Mr Boddah, yet to have..
49)Have you ever played an instrument?
Answer: yes, rebana for dikir, kompang, gamelan =)
50)What is the worst idea you've in the week
Answer: No idea
51)What were you doing last night at 11pm?
Answer: im not sure. i must have been sleeping
52)Are you happy with your love life right now?
Answer: Totally!
53)What song to describe your love life?
Answer: No Air!!
54)Does the person know you like him/her?
Answer: Of course
55)Who always make you laugh?
Answer: Yana
56)Do you speak other language other than English?
Answer: Mandarin, Spanish, and of course, Malay
57)Are you blond?
Answer: Yucks!
58)What's your middle name?
Answer: No middle name
59)What are you going to do tomorrow
Answer: dont know yet
60)What do you think you are like?
Answer: i dunno
61)Who will you choose to die with?
Answer: what kind of question is this?
62)Where have you been today?
Answer: no where
63)What game do you play often?
Answer: i used to play lots of games. not anymore.. so, no game
64)Who are you missing right now?
Answer: Mr Boddah
65)If you're choosing between friends and love, which one would you choose?
Answer: BOTH. im greedy.
66)What are you doing now?
Answer: Doing this question.
67)What primary school are you from?
Answer: SSB
68)Name the three colour that you like.
Answer: red, red and red.. hehehe
69)What emotions you like to show?
Answer: all kinds
70)What is life to you?
Answer: everything.
71)If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Answer: think and get 2nd opinion
72)Who did you last chat in MSN today?
Answer: no more MSN. I skype!
73)Who do you admire the most?
Answer: Mom
74)Which month are you born?
Answer: September
75)How are you feeling right now?
Answer: full (just had lunch)
76)What is the time now?
Answer: 1.15pm
77)Where are you now?
Answer: at home
78)What colour do you use to dye your hair?
Answer: no dye
79)Why are you doing this test?
Answer: for fun. I dont have good idea to write, so i turn to surveys..
80)What do you do when you're moody?
Answer: Silence =) tranquility
81)Are you stupid?
Answer: No! im pretty smart (in my dreams)
82)Who is more important to you?
Answer: Family and loved one!
83)Do you think you have enough confidence?
Answer: its never enough
84)Who is the person you trust the most?
Answer: my mom and Mr Boddah.
85)Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain?
Answer: Yes
86)If you have a dream come true, what will it be?
Answer: happily ever after with Mr Boddah
87)What is your goal for this year?
Answer: be a good girlfriend =)
88)Do you believe in eternity love?
Answer: Yes
89)Who do you love?
Answer: family and Mr Boddah
90)Do you really think it's global warming now?
Answer: YES!
91)What do you hate the most?
Answer: Nosy / busybody person and people who are so damn sensitive
92)If someone you love hurts you a lot, what would you do?
Answer: Cry
93)Do you believe in god?
Answer: Yes
94)Who do you care the most?
Answer: Everyone...
95)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Answer: My long term goal =)
96)What will you bring when you are in a fight?
Answer: No fighting please
97)What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
Answer: So many, but im thankful for everything that happens
98)What would you feel when no one longer care about you?
Answer: Sad
99)What if your stead is two-timer?
Answer: I'll leave
100)Why are you living in this world?
Answer: because its destiny =)

the ambivalent

Gosh! Its pouring rain out there. I kinda feel distracted. The wind is way too strong.. Rite, i wasn't going to rite about the weather..

Indecisive.. that's me.. I think that's us (taking my Mr Boddah into account). All i want is 'happily ever after' which of course only exists in fairy tales (we'll work out our very own fairy tale, soulmate!). Too many details, too many things to do; yet, so little time. Sometimes, you just want the simplest thing in life, away from anything too complicated, nothing demanding, just plain and simple. But life does not work out that way at times. You dont live by urself, you have people who cares about you and loves you around you. And they want to be a part of your life. Because you are one of them. And they want to do the best for you, no matter how simple you want everything to be. So, you just have to make do and oblige, because deep down inside you somehow believe that they know better. (and they really do)

I am so lucky to have my Mr Boddah. Because no matter how lousy a gf I am, how awfully misbehaved I turned out to be, he’s there. Right beside me. And he undeniably understands how my life is not as simple as i hoped it is. He knows for certain, there’s nothing simple in what I want because I fuss over the tiniest details. And thats my kind of definition of the word 'simple'. I think because as much as i like simplicity, i'm a perfectionist myself. So, where do i draw the line between the two? What else do i need? I've found 'the one'.. But i'm yet to have him. Soon.. Lets hope it's sooner than later.

the enigma

Life is full of surprises.. and challenges. everyone knows that. and there's always be problems along the way. Relationship always have its own ordeal. Mine for example, always have this kind of pattern. 1st you get a very smooth, lovey-dovey feeling (especially when you just got back from a date). you cant stop the smile on your face. its just there, it lingers.. then, by midweek, u start getting giddy, everything was not right, even the slightest remarks were misunderstood and there you have it - the dispute! Gosh! Flabbergasting! but, i've to admit, i caused it. My everdearest Mr Boddah has nothing to do with it. He was himself all the time. I on the other hand, was the jerk who felt that something was wrong somewhere while nothing was ever wrong. I think i know the reason for my jerkiness. As i mentioned earlier, the date was once every 2 weeks. the lovey-dovey feeling will last only for so long. then come the 'im here, do u ever realize that i exist?' period. then of course the 'forgive my stupidity and thanks for all the patience' phase, and the whole system start again in 2 weeks time.

But still, i should say im so lucky. Mr Boddah has never give-up. He'll stay right beside me, whether im the sweet girlfriend complete with the halo and wings; or the evil woman with bloody fangs and long piercing nail, he'll be there to forgive and forget and be the great boyfriend i never thought i'd have. i'll try to be a better girlfriend soulmate.. yeay, another resolution! (please refer to my previous entry on new year resolution).. November, we're coming! =)

the incredibly sweet

How true when people said that u shldn't hate a person 100%. I wasn't hating, i was just hoping to get some space for a while. yet, he was insistent, very much determined and constantly pursuing without a glimpse sign of giving up - (THANK GOD!) - So, at last, i was the one who yielded to his sweet effort and i've been in love ever since. That's my Mr Boddah, a person who's changed my world, since the very 1st day we were 'US' =)

this month is going to be our 3rd year together. I have to admit that we are still crazily head over heels of each other till today. How lucky i am. A few days back we met (our routine dating ritual is once every fortnight. haha!) after a long talk, (i love having conversation with him cz we seldom meet) i finally realize one thing.. Not that i didn't notice it before, but at that time, it was right in front of my eyes. My everdearest Mr Boddah is a very, very, very understanding, tolerant man i've ever met.. (and his mine! yeay!!) cz i know nobody who could ever tolerate my topsy-turvy tempered nature (especially during that time of the month). but he does! my guy! my beloved Mr Boddah! He is definitely 'THE ONE'.

the commitment

There u go.. new year.. and together with it comes workloads.. *sigh!* its my 6th month working here. funny thing is, i'd never tot i could get as attached to my work as i am rite now. im enjoying every second of it. my work is all about making connections and being the L.O. and i arrange visits. its cool. its like my dream job! 2 incoming visits and one outgoing (to Japan) this month. cant wait! its a challenge everytime. and its fun.

I remember one thing, (nothing to do with my work) i dont have a new year resolution! come to think of it, im not sure i ever have one. because i'll have a resolution depending on circumstances. its more like a long-term goal. like the time when i was getting my degree; it was mid-year, so its not really a new year resolution (coz i didnt put getting a degree as my resolution at the beginning of the year; rite?) But when i started my first day in uni, i put a 3-years resolution. So, yupsy, my resolution will definitely depends entirely on occasions that im going to face and its usually a long term goal. maybe, getting married should be one of it. or maybe i can put is as my new year resolution! to start doing something which will make me a step (seriously, a step) closer towards matrimony. that reminds me of something. last nite, i had some sort of discussion with my ever dearest 'Mr. Boddah'. i think in the end we agreed, never to discuss about our marriage plan till its time. so, there goes proposed-new-year-resolution down the drain. so here i am again, without a new year resolution.

by the way, iv been surviving without one before, maybe i should stick to my yearly routine (without resolution) and have one when i need one. so matrimony is still on my list. cz its the long term resolution/goal. i could cope with that. cz i know im not getting married this year. so, yes, its my new-couple-of-year resolution! ok, now i feel like a normal human being. *phew!*