the long wait..

at last.. it was something iv been anticipating for i dont know how long. and it finally happened. there were too many things in my head before; prior to it. but when its rite in front of me, i felt 'ktulu'. or maybe not really 'ktulu' in its real sense, maybe its a mistake. no, maybe im not suppose to do it yet. or maybe it was the ambience. maybe.. maybe.. maybe.. there's too many maybes now.. it made me realize that i was not really 'invited'. i was at the wrong place, at the wrong time, and definitely created the wrong impression. its not really something i expected. there was never a time when i felt so out of place like it. i felt like i was some kind of pest. a fly better. where people are just trying to get rid of u since u r so pesky. i wanna so forget that it ever happened. except some part of it =) its ok if u dont know what im rambling about. bcz i dont think anyone knows what ever thing im saying anyway. that's the purpose. for me to ponder, for u to wonder..